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Introducing one-self is not easy,its like giving an open book exam.You have all the resources available with you in exam but you prefer to write what you remember rather than wasting time in searching. Similarly while you introduce your self, you see what other's introductions are having & just copy and paste their hobby as your Hobby, their interest as your interest. You never see whats there inside you. I never find easy to articulate my self so here I am....expressing my self to the world, to see myself from inside.... The first step is to give my formal introduction.... My self Nikhilesh(aka nicky) also supposed to be an electronics engineer. Have done M.TECH. in Optical Communication from IIT DELHI. I was in TU/Eindhoven (The Nehterlands) for one year as a research scholar. Currently I am working as a SW QA Engg in Infinera Bangalore. My views are generally optimistic. While doing any work, the last thing I would do is to loose hope. People say I am innocent but I know the depth of innocency. I like to be with myself but I am not agoraphobiac, instead I love to travel. I am charged by observing different people and their cultures.

Sunday, December 29, 2013

The Incredible India

I remember those TV ads, which Indian govt. has launched for showing the diversity and rich culture of India. I never thought so deeply about the culture of India and why it is so special? After coming back to India in almost one year, I feel the difference between our culture and the culture of west. I am not saying that materialistically we are not developed or we are very poor as compared to the rich countries. Coming back to India was big culture shock for me than going to west and experience their culture. When I landed here before 15 days, I saw only chaos. I started observing people at the airport. Everything was looking very much negative. I was thinking, how a foreigner will think about my country, how is the officer at the airport behaving, why there is no security, why autowala is forcing me to take their auto, and the list continues. My heart was literally crying from inside by looking the condition of my country.
But if I keep this materialistic development aside, because I think it is mainly caused by the govt irresponsibility and corruption. They did not take sensible decisions all over the time.
I need to see more deeply, to understand rich Indian culture and people's mentality. There is no doubt the Indian people have inferiority complex, It is because of slavery by Britishers for a long time. It is actually improving by time, because there is no instant solution of this problem. In addition, I see deep connection and strong faith in people. This faith may be due to fear or devotion but it is there. In India, despite having lots of problems people are very content. They always have feeling of giving something and doing service without any intention. It is very much appreciable. We have a strong tradition of Yoga and meditation. This knowledge is very deep and people in west are hungry of this knowledge. I, myself have meet many people who appreciate me only because I am an Indian. I am from a place where vibrational energy is very strong because for ages rishis and munis have meditated here. Now after 15 days of living in India, my mind set is again changed. So what if there is no development, so what if people dont smile, so what if there are more poor, so what if govt is not good, it is my country. I am blessed to be born in such a beautiful land. I take responsibility to do at my level best to make it better place for living. 

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

The Silent Communication

How absurd is this title, The Silent Communication....can communication be possible in silence? And if it is, then how much effective will it be? Last week, I got a chance to go in the 3 days silence program of art of living. Those three days we were totally silent, even no talking with our self, no facebook, no mp3, no mobiles nothing, means no distraction from outside world. For someone (specially girls) it is impossible to be silent for few minutes, forget about three days. But the experience we all had was amazing.
There were in total 21 participants in the course and I could personally feel a strong connection with each one of them.
I like these lines from the course "the purpose of words is to create silence" but we never speak like that. We speak what ever comes to our mind and later on we feel sorry for that. Speaking too much also reduces the power of our speech. But when we speak after keeping silence for some time our power of speech is tremendous. By being silent, we start feeling the joy from inside. We don't need external factor to be happy.
That is how I am feeling now a days.
The course venue was in the middle of black forest in Germany, called Bad Antogast. It is international center of art of living in Germany. It was my second visit to that place. The place is so vibrant and full of energy. The day course started, snow also started there. The first snow of the season was very beautiful.
The teacher, who took the course, his name was Christopher Kiran Byrt. He was a German and have been in art of living from around 25 years. His silence was very strong. He doesn't need any word for communication that you can easily feel in his presence.
So for the first time I realized that it is possible to communicate even in silence and this communication is even more deeper and strong.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Let the element of childishness be alive

Today is 14th November, the day of remembering our childhood. when I remember those days, the only things which comes on my face is 'SMILE'. I have many good memories of mischievousness which I used to do and I am sure many of you also have some or many memories on which you can feel proud of your childhood and pray from god to make you child again. 
When we were small, there were no responsibilities, no botheration. We were not much aware of this materialistic world but just happy with our little-little things. One small cartoon of Tom and Jerry used to give us such a happiness that today's 3 hrs movie show can't give. The enthusiasm of playing Mario and Contra was so different than today's PS3 games.
The best memories of childhood comes from school because there we used to be with our friends with whom we can fight, play, chatter, share every good and bad things which we cant share with any one else in family. Blessed are those who are still in contact with their chuddy-buddy and I am one of them. Today, on this children's day occasion, I miss those friends with whom I have no contacts now.   
As we go far from our childhood, responsibilities starts showing up. Suddenly we start converting these responsibilities in to burden and this pressure doesn't let us to enjoy. We start living in the past memories of childhood because they were very beautiful.
If we want to be young by heart then we have to keep alive the element of childishness in our self. We should do some crazy things time to time which can reminds us of our childhood. We can also visit the school where we used to study. We can visit our old friends and give them surprise to make our self happy.

Let the element of childishness not die in our self.........Happy children's day to all of us

Thursday, August 1, 2013

My never ending desires....

"Lord Buddha" said in his 8 fold path,
My Infinite Desires
there are SUFFERINGS in human life and DESIRES are main cause of SUFFERINGS. Its so nicely said. Happiness in life seems to be like a myth. It seems like every one in this world is happy only except you. But in actuality its not true. This happiness and unhappiness is very much complimentary. One gives value to other. Some or the other time in life, we have observed both and hence we are able to recognize one of them. For example, ask any small child, Are you unhappy? The answer would be big NO, because they don't have any big desires. Never the less, to have desires is human nature. The problems starts when we see our society and we also start having desires, desires of money, desires of reputation, desires of happiness, desires of good time etc etc. And with the desires we invite misery. Because desires and misery are actually two sides of a coin, you can not pick one.
The knowledgeable one knows that it is also not good to have no desires at all. Actually desires should be there but we should be aware that we should be content, doesn't matter the desire will be fulfilled or not. If being happy, you will work towards your desire than there is better chance that it will be fulfilled.

I achieved very few things in life and still have many desires. Through this blog I want to make myself realized that by just having a faith my desires are going to fulfilled and doesn't matter weather it will be fulfilled or not, I will be happy :) :) :)
|At this amount of time, If I will write my desires than may be one page will not be enough. (And I am sure others have even more desires than  me) never the less I will write some of my desires so that I may get some strength from somewhere to fulfill it.

1) I want to write a non technical book....(Thought about it many times but never started)
2) People wants help. (If I could be able to do something for them...may be open a NGO for poor people)
3) I want to complete my PhD in due time.
4) I want to be more natural
5)  I want to travel whole world
etc etc etc

I wish the list to increase day by day....:) 

Monday, July 8, 2013

Bad Antogast....place like heaven

Just three days back I was complaining. complains about work in office, complaints about food, complaints about deterious health. But this three days....oh my god. Despite working for day and night....feeling so fresh. I was in art of living german aashram in Bad Antogast. On friday, I reached there. Got chance to do seva for saturday and sunday. Most of the time I passed in kitchen chopping vegetables, washing utensils and many more kitchen stuffs and meeting new friends was also delightful. Attending satsang in evening and dancing like nobody is looking at you gives you inner strength. It make you strong from deep inside.
The physical beauty of the aashram was also very charming, surrounded by black forest jungle and hills makes her so beautiful that it was hard to leave aashram after 3 days of staying. The last day, when everyone was soaked in satsang I went up on the hills all alone. I was alone in the green fields surrounded by pine trees. It was heavenly feelings which cant be expressed by only words. I sat there quite for some time till the complete dawn. When I was alone in the mountains, the silence of the mountain was trying to communicate with me through winds. After some time I went back.
Any tour is incomplete if there is no chaos. while going to the aashram, the person with whom I was supposed to go in car was late by 2 hours. and It created lots of panic. As the place where the aashram is in jungle area. and in that area I reached at 11 in night. how terrific.....but thanks to aashram people who came to receive me at Oppenau. while coming back also, got chance to travel in ICE high speed train from karlsruhe to cologne in just 12 euros. It was also a chaos for some time when we 5-6 people didnt find the mitfahren person in ICE train. and we all were without tckt in high speed train 1st class. But TC came after 10 minutes. somehow that matter solved and we were allowed to travel in train.
Finally I am back in Eindhoven, fresh again. ready to work from tomorrow.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

I Love My Diary


I love my diary...It's only place where I am with myself.
No one else disturbs me, bothers me, annoys me and hence I can celebrate this blissfull life with myself.
When I am with my diary I am the one who has full authority to ask the question, I am the one who has full control over myself and hence I love my diary.
And I know It's not like a one sided love and I have a proof for it. I get signals from my diary too and I can interpret those signals. My diary calls me when ever it needs me. It doesn't disturb me when ever I am busy, It also enhances my capabilities and try to improve myself that's what a true lover does and hence my diary also loves me.
I miss the time when we were together, and I hope my diary misses me too.
She knows all my secrets, the secrets from the scratch which I can not say to any one but my diary knows it. and I hope she will keep my secrets deep buried inside it. She gives me suggestion like a guardian does, cares like my parents does and is always with me like my friends and hence I love my diary.
   

Friday, February 15, 2013

Central Introduction Program @TU/e



Hey everyone...
Its my first post from The Netherlands.
I arrived here before 15 days. So I started experiencing dutch culture :)
Had Central Introduction program in TU/e today.
It was amazing to know about people of different origin and compare there culture with ours. Made lots of friends today.
The things I have to adjust here are weather and food. But these things are also quite good manageable till now :)